OT Depression
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Older than dirt
Friday, June 3, 2016 5:45 PM
How do you know when to throw in the towel and just give up? From most logical, rational indicators I've had a wonderful life. Well educated, 47 years of at least average marriage, steady employment with leadership positions both at work and in other aspects of life. Great kids and grand-kids. Steady and frequent sex with several willing and able strippers in my later years (60 to 70).
But lately everything has just gone wrong. My wife's Alzheimers is getting worse. My ATF stopped using drugs and her therapist in rehab convinced her that having sex for money is degrading and contributes to her drug use, my #2 favorite just stopped communicating after telling me to fuck off, my #3 favorite dancer got fired from my favorite club, moved an hour & a half away and started working at a non-contact air dance club and says she likes not being "pawed by old men".
My reading of my wife's long term care insurance policy was wrong and I incurred thousands of dollars in care costs not covered. My credit score plummeted and when I went to refinance my house I've run into a brick wall. So even though I've got about $200,000 in equity in the house I can't find a reasonable way to tap it.
So, I'm broke, my credit is fucked, my wife is off her rocker driving me nuts, and my three favorite dancers are all unavailable. I went to the club yesterday and spent time with a wonderful stripper who's been a good friend for many years but who allows no extras at all. I have texted with her recently, but hadn't seen her in months. She kept me waiting, was critical of everything I said and ( out of character) seemed only interested in money. None of the other dancers caught my attention and I left, depressed.
Maybe it's me. I knew I was a dirty old man, but maybe I've now become a boring dirty old man. Maybe I need to change from my hobby of strip clubbing to stamp collecting. Maybe I just need to throw in the towel
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