Comments by Vantablack (page 16)

Loyalty is everything to me, I wouldn't be able to forgive. Call me old fashioned or call me a fool, but that's how I see it. I've had a girlfriend that was unfaithful and it was not fun

@MisterWonderful Do you mean in terms of what it takes for a dancer to tolerate one of her customers?

Not every dancer is good and not every dancer is bad. If you're meeting a new person, you don't automatically just assume they're out to get you. IF you do that, then that's fine too. However, it could severely limit how well you interact with people. The same goes for dancers. Sure they are a little more money motivated than your average Joe, but at the end of the day they are people just like you and me. There are always gonna be good ones and bad ones. Let's hope in the future you only run into the good ones.

Did the age gap ever make it feel weird or awkward at first?

Thanks for everything guys. For all the responses and advice. I won't disappear from TUSCL. And I'll do my best to achieve what I can. Life is all about facing hard decisions and I am going to do exactly that. I never thought one person could have such a profound effect on me, but I think I can make something good of it.

@JAprufrock I think I'm good as far as sex goes. Sex isn't a priority for me. It never was and I don't think it will be for a while. It's the intimate connection I seek. However in my situation, that doesn't fit anywhere in the equation. So until then the best thing I can do is be the best friend I can possibly be.

@DC9428 I think you're right. I think we are compatible as friends, but nothing more. Although I wish there could be more. Her lifestyle choices aren't exactly the most stable nor are they the most healthy, but I'm hoping she comes to terms with that herself. My influence can only go so far. Until then I will try to keep and build whatever we already have

@ei8ht_ball I'm not paying her anything. We met outside the club with no money transaction involved. She agreed to meeting me outside to hang out. It was actually her idea to begin with. I mean I'll pay for her food here and there, but that is about it. In fact the other day when we went out she even insisted to pay. The only time I spend money on her is in the club, but I don't go often enough or spend enough for it to make a significant impact on her income.

@DC9428 We are compatible in terms of interests. We love the same music, the same movies, similar tastes in humor and food. We get along very well. The only part where we differ is personal view on certain things. For example in her eyes, she doesn't think infidelity or massive drug/alcohol use is that big of an issue. However to me personally, I hate cheaters (I was cheated on before in the past) and I do not the support the substance abuse habit. Pretty much lifestyle choice is where the line is drawn between the two of us. We've never had a disagreement over these kinds of things, but if we were dating I know it would be an issue.

@PhatBoy99 Ideally that's what I wanted when I figured out that I had a legitimate attraction to her. However, I was blinded by my infatuation I didn't see all the issues that lay there before me. If I actually did date her, her lifestyle habits would most definitely strain our relationship. The smartest thing to do would be to just drop her out of my life and go back to my other hobbies. It would save me a lot of effort and emotions. However, I think I like this girl way too much to do. I like where I am with he right now, but I don't think it is possible to go to the next level without someone getting frustrated or hurt.

@DC9428 And yeah I get what you mean. It is pretty much all my fault. Like Papi said up there, I'm making strip clubs to be something that they aren't. However it is a bit too late for that since I'm already so heavily invested in my ATF. I think I expected too much out of her and now the frustration is catching up with me. Especially now that I know that whatever I am trying to achieve with her isn't plausible.

@ei8ht_ball That's exactly it. Now that I know that her and I can be friends out in the real world, I keep wanting to escalate it. It's that same feeling that drives people to keep advancing in whatever it is they're doing. If we went from normal customer/provider to being able to meet outside the club not P4P, then that at least shows that it is real to some degree.

@JohnSmith69 The problem is that it was never about sex. Sex was beyond the least of my priorities. I think that's part of the problem as to why it turned out the way it did

@ei8ht_ball It's good that at least you know what she's after. It's very clear to you that you know where to draw the line. You have that mentality and self reminder that prevents you from falling in too deep. That same mindset allows you to move on easily too. I don't have that. I'm too emotionally invested in a girl that I've met at the strip club. I have trouble letting things go. At first she was my favorite dancer. Then she became my friend. And now I want to take it to the next level. I don't know when to stop and that's why I feel like I need to distance myself, but I'm torn. I'm going to feel like shit regardless of which path I take. My mind is a giant swirl of lust, infatuation, confusion and depressoon.

@wallanon You're right. I wish the strip club was just mindless fun. The minute I met my ATF things took a turn. At first I thought it was good, but now I know it truly isn't. I'm already feeling depressed and I hope I'm not already in that "bad" place

@DC9428 I did and we did have OTC fun. It wasn't anything sexual, it was normal civilian fun. It was one of the best nights I've had in a long long time. However it made me realize that no matter how much I liked this girl, I could never be with her. Too much emotional baggage and too many issues, I know for a fact she'd break my heart to pieces. She's a good friend, but I don't think it could advance beyond that without inevitable misery. I was so hellbent on trying to win her heart I neglected everything else around me. I'm losing motivation in my career and I feel alienated from my friends. And although I absolutely love her company, I know every second I spend with her only makes me want her more. The more that happens I know the larger the emotional toll will be. And I have don't have the heart to just stop seeing her...

I think just being a decent person and a decent customer should be more than enough. Don't be a creep, don't waste her time and don't be boring! Strippers are people too! Like any normal person, good manners and a good attitude can take you a long way

I currently have an iPhone 7 from 2016. She's still running strong, but I think it's time to switch to Android! Apple devices are too hindered in terms of capability. No customization and iTunes is plain stupid. Probably going to get an LG G7 ThinQ or the LG V40 when it comes out.

https://youtu.be/t7lM7Bn16Zg Kream by Tyga This song was made for the strip club

Thailand is much better for mongering. It doesn't matter what you're into, but it probably exists in Thailand.

@rickdugan Holy crap that's really close. What was it like in Manhattan at the time? The panic level there must've been through the roof

Don't go to Vietnam right now. It's not a good idea. I was there. Lots of civil unrest breaking out over the recent Chinese economic zoning plans.

My dad told me that lots of people thought war was starting when all this happened. I can't imagine the amount of panic and fear everyone felt that day

Incels are always gonna be around. The internet is like their territory. I don't think any amount of SCing could cure an incel. They're full of misogyny and bad feelings

I like my current location! I've been to every corner of this country and California will always be my favorite. But if I really had to make a choice it'll probably be Texas or Florida