I have to be honest, I normally binge a bit the week before Christmas. Some of my best experiences each year are in the runup to Christmas, when girls who may have been on the fence about an OTC outing experience readjustments in perspective, especially when they are short money for Christmas gifts. Indeed each year I usually put a little extra money aside just to enjoy the last few days before Christmas Eve.
But this year feels different. Don't get me wrong, I think that opportunities will abound now more than ever. I could probably bang a different hot stripper OTC every night between now and the 24th. But I feel more conflicted than I did in years past. Our family is heavily involved in the local charitable scene and the food banks and toy drives we work with are getting hit harder now than ever before. I'm sure that some of what we do even ultimately makes it into the hands of our local strippers and their children.
I guess what I am really questioning is whether I should indulge like I have in past years when that money could go to such good use elsewhere. It somehow doesn't feel right to drop large sums of money over the coming days just to get my dick wet when there are so many people struggling through no fault of their own. Idk - maybe I need to rethink my priorities this year.
Of course, by tomorrow I could easily shake off this conflicted feeling and go back to what I normally do. But for today at least, I'm perhaps feeling a little guilty. IDK.

