A blast from the past. Who can name the club or the reviewer?

April 11, 2005 • I have been trying to stay home each night, but when 10 PM roles around I just cannot make myself stay home and go to bed. I think about all of these cute girls I know down at XXXXXXX strip bar and I just cannot fall asleep or stay home. I went down there again tonight. It seems like alot of these girls must think I am rich and they are almost fighting for my attention now. My favorite girl of the 40 or so that I know actually came and sat with me tonight and just talked to me. I have been wanting this for so long! While she was doing this though, one of my other favorite girls had to come and interrupt and try to talk to me also. Later another oone of my favorites did about the same thing. This one girl named Jeri or Geri or however she spells it is such a turn on!! She will come and give me kisses on the lips and things like that that hardly any of the girls will do. I would gladly have her as my girlfriend if I could, but I just don't think it would work out with her or any of these other girls. Most of these girls earn about $200 to $600 per night just for dancing and don't ever actually work as hookers or have sex with guys for money. I only make $57 per day before taxes and about $40 per day after taxes, but most of these girls seem to think that I make alot more than that just because I come into XXXXXXX almost every night and spend anywhere from $40 to $150 every night in about 2 hours. I also try to dress really nice and wear nice gold and diamond rings and stuff like that. I tell these girls I am poor and do not have money, but I don't think that they believe me and I think they mainly like me just because they think that I have money. I sometimes wonder if there is just one nice, cute, sincere dancer there that would really make a good girlfriend. I think there has to be at least one and that I have to keep going there and trying to find her. I have to go to the strip bar just to try to get at least a little pleasure and fun out of my day. This one girl named Lexie or Robin or Michelle (She changes her name alot.) was there tonight again. I have met probably at least 40 dancers there since I have been going there, but she is at least one of the top 3 as far as being someone who really turns me on and excites me. She absolutely drives me crazy! Unfortuneately she plays these little games like she will say that she will come right over and then she won't keep her word and then the next time I see her she will make it sound like I was the one who didn't show up and like I was the one who ignored her!! She has done this at least 3 or 4 times. I just don't know if she cannot keep track of what is going on or if she is purposely playing some game with me. I am absolutely crazy about her and would litterally do almost anything for her. I would do anything if I could just go out to eat with her and talk to her, just to spend some time with her. I would be in heaven if she ever came home with me some night and fell asleep next to me, even if there was no sex involved. I would love that so much!! I want to hug her and hold her and fall asleep next to her so bad that it hurts!!! She always smells so good and her skin is so soft and so warm.