The end of an era (error)

21 comments

• Baller_Biggie_Playa_69

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  6 years ago

  Not to mention the void on this discussion board.
• doctorevil

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  6 years ago

  Sex 350 times, $350,000, equal $1,000 per.
• gawker

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  6 years ago

  Doctorevil: most time @ $500/hr. Plus hotels , 2 cars, several vacations, gifts, etc. I the first 5 years, lots of 2 & 3 hour assignations.
• Mate27

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  6 years ago

  Gawker, looks like you’ll have to take in a few more Red Sox ballgames to fill the void. I know the actions a little slower, and you may have to wait forever to find something exciting to cheer about, but at least baseball is an intelligent man’s game. Maybe you could be a grandfather figure and take a kid to a game? I wouldn’t know how you cope with the addiction to this and other strippers. My motto has always been to pick up a new vice or hobby, and then come back to the stripper life periodically (but much less) so you don’t feel like you’re missing out. Rotating your vices allows you to have fun without dibilitating consequences, at least in theory. Smoke a blunt, have a nice dinner, travel, play poker, learn to LDK with a spinner at your local club without saying much to her, start on old man’s support group for grieving after lost ATF/CF from tuscl members, or anything else creative to get your mind off this toxic woman you’ve supported for 9 years. Good luck! I almost hope you relapse so we get to read another train wreck story from your stripper.
• Uprightcitizen

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  6 years ago

  Nice update Gawker and hope she gets "well" by taking responsibility and becoming mentally grounded again. I sense a taste of bitterness in your story and its probably only natural since you have made soo many efforts in the past to help her get better and maybe you dont feel appreciated for all you have done. But you have also enabled her behavior. What caused her to hit rock bottom and decide to change?
• rogertex

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  6 years ago

  Best wishes. Nobody can take your eloquent writing skills away from you. Fill that void by writing the best and juiciest tales here.
• shadowcat

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  6 years ago

  I'm not holding my breath!
• flagooner

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  6 years ago

  It sounds like it will be leaving a void in her vagina as well.
• gawker

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  6 years ago

  I don’t think she’ll be living at a convent next week, but she certainly intends to start a new life. The other PL who’s been seeing her for as long as I has been even more generous with her and from what I can tell he’s close to dying. His mortality has been a lesson for her. She had him over at my house recently and I overheard him tell her that he made $450,000 last year and I know he’s been very generous. She knows that I’ve cut way back and he’s dying, so this was a factor. She had gone to 4 different detox programs over the last 5 weeks and didn’t successfully complete any. She said she’s heard the same stuff over and over and just felt that if she was ever going to get clean and stay sober she’d have to do it herself. So she and I hit the road and meandered down the east coast. She was the DJ in the car and she blasted rap, hip hop and a few oldies ever6 day. The music, the low expectations, and the laziness was very relaxing and frankly her heroin and cocaine detoxes were relatively smooth and easy, but she’d also been taking benzoes at a pretty heavy dosage. This should have been done at a hospital because the body doesn’t like to give thes3 up. In SC she began kicking benzoes, felt sick, had a fever, elevated bp, raising heart rhythm, and so I took her to an ER. The doctor cautioned us about seizures, put her on an IV to hydrate her and sent us on our way. Two days later she had a seizure while driving;a,ctually pulling into a gas station and tapped the bumper into a protective barrier around the gas tanks. An hour later, an other seizure. She has burned some bridges with me and it’s become clear to us both that ours is a toxic relationship. My therapist will be pleased to learn of this happening in that he has repeatedly stated that she has led me to self-destructive behavior. I’m better off away from her.
• flagooner

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  6 years ago

  What makes you think that the relationship is toxic?
• Baller_Biggie_Playa_69

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  6 years ago

  "For the same amount of money over the same amount of time you could've had sex 130 times per year with an escort" Yeah, but nobody here wants to read about boring shit like that.
• jackslash

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  6 years ago

  I encourage Gawker to go through all his posts and write a book. I think it would be a great story. I would buy a copy. However, I don't think this is the end of an era. It is a break like his other breaks. The story will not be over until she dies of an overdose or Gawker is murdered by one of her boyfriends or drug dealers. No judgment. My own adventures with my ATF have many similarities, although less money and fewer drugs have been involved.
• gawker

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  6 years ago

  "These stats are terrible" Obviously, I didn't keep a log of trysts or dollars spent. These are conservative estimates. As far as frequency is concerned; we fucked 2 or 3 times a week in the first few years, but then we began having interruptions. One year she was in Hawaii for 3 or 4 months. I bought her tickets to go live on the beach with a recovering addict, but she left him, lived with a.native Hawaiian for awhile and then found a meth addicted felon from CA. Another time her Dad sent her to Tijuana to a clinic to treat addiction by administering hullucagenic drugs. After a month there she went back to Hawaii. When she came home the same Hawaiian dude called me thinking she was carrying his baby ( he & I became Facebook friends). She wasn't. There were some major disagreements between us and that would occasionally lead to 3 or 4 month hiatus. The relationship is toxic because neither party is better for it. And we finished the Kama Sutra. Lol
• flagooner

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  6 years ago

  ^ No need to justify paying a premium to fuck someone you want to be with compared to what you would pay to fuck a random cunt with no emotional attachment.
• jester214

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  6 years ago

  What is this, the 8th time you've posted a discussion saying it's over?
• gawker

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  6 years ago

  Only the fourth. I believe (and hope) this is the last.
• 4got2wipe

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  6 years ago

  gawker, you need to find a new crazy story muse. You have written at least half of the most brilliant crazy stories on TUSCL. You need to add to that! ;)
• 4got2wipe

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  6 years ago

  But maybe go for a less self-destructive muse. That's the aces way!
• Cashman1234

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  6 years ago

  Your post has more finality than previous posts about cutting things off. I hope she can stay off the drugs, and live a clean productive life. Sadly, her body is too good to not use hard. She sounds even hotter than any porn star. So, that is a waste. Hopefully you will find an outlet for your desires.
• April9424

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  6 years ago

  your posts remind me a lot of an old regular who i knew for many years and would see otc. on top of being addicted to hot young girls and sexual stuff he was very obviously addicted to drama but would not admit it. with his career, house, boat, and the money he had to blow.. dude could have easily hired much hotter escorts or found a nice good looking SB with her act together. instead he kept fucking around with crazy drug addicts who live out of motels and shit. he was a decent guy, and you seem like a decent guy too, so it's weird to see.. but i think i can kinda understand it
• JuiceBox69

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  6 years ago

  Good luck my Friend