That fucking a civilian doesn't feel normal ? I remember a time in my mid to late twenties this was flipped.
I was married to a civilian and was used to the marital sex situations. Even shortly after my marriage early on I would date and fuck civilians usually waitresses and was used to that kind of situation...at those times the sex with a paid provider was odd and weird to me
Currently in my mid thirties and I've been having more sex with paid providers and it's the norm and I love how the situation but now I'm trying sex with a civilian waitress once again but this time it doesn't feel like I need it to...the girl is beautiful and the sex is enjoyable but it's not the same with a provider
I actually have grown to crave sex with a provider over a civilian
Any one else feel the same ? Any one got a reason why it's like this for me ? Have I became that much of a loner, player, bachelor, about me and my business ?
I went through a period of womanizing after a girl I was dating had cheated on me, and I figured it was better to be the one cuckolding than the one cuckolded. The girls I knew I could get had a certain vulnerability about them that seemed less attractive at the time. After associating with enough strippers, my view on that became the opposite, though.
Now a woman being authentic and having a certain vulnerability because it's real feels incredibly hot.