For those of you with significant others, why do you do p4p with strippers? Do you feel bad/guilty about it?
I have a girlfriend. On again/off again. Very volatile relationship. Drug use. Physical violence a few times. Still, it contributes to my level of self loathing every time I fuck a stripper. And every time I fuck a stripper our chance at a sane relationship gets further and further away.


I'm married and don't fully understand why I'm such a strip club hound either. See this excellent piece I wrote (called "Why do I do this?") on the subject:
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Some have suggested that it is due to my narcissism, but that is just ridiculous! I do acknowledge I have "personality damage" in that article I posted a link to but there's is no way it could be narcissism. I'm too much of a RICH STUD for it to be that.
I don't feel bad or guilty about what I do, though I will act like I do if the heat is really on. My own immediate needs comes first, and I am a brilliant enough liar and deceiver that my wife will never catch on.
How about you, LMN? Do you feel guilty about it?