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more self destruction

Tuesday, May 13, 2014 11:52 AM
I blew through one of my custodial trust accounts. My family's financial manager called me and told me I zeroed out the account as of yesterday. I have plenty of other custodial trust accounts and a six figure salary so it's not that I'm in financial trouble, per se, as it is the concept of how much I spent. All on stupid shit such as: - strippers - cocaine - sports cars At the end of the day, I have nothing to show for it. Not even the material objects. I get bored of a car days after I buy it. It gives me pleasure for all of one or two drives then it's boring and dull. I'm doing some construction on my condo (the one I live in) and I had to ask my father for $10k because I can't get the other custodial accounts released for a few more days and I blew through my last few paychecks on stupid shit. I texted my psychiatrist that I needed more roxis. Stupid bitch still hasn't texted me back. $250/hour and doesn't take insurance plus she bills me an additional $250 for every scrip I "request." Tomorrow, I will find out if a business that I have equity in will be sold or not. If it does, I'll make about 750k. I will probably shut down the strip club when I get that cash, lol. Makes me wonder, though: is this life?

39 comments

  • knight_errant
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    10 years ago
    Absolutely. Spend the money as if you have it already. You know as well as anyone with money, there's always more where that came from.
  • LMN
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    10 years ago
    Thanks to my family, I don't think I'd be able to run out of money even if I tripled my spending. My point is that it felt like a reality check/sobering wake up call to have my family's financial manager tell me I burned through the trust account. At the end of the day, I have little to show for it. Even the material objects bring me zero satisfaction. The last sports car I had before the Mercedes, I crashed so it was a total waste.
  • LMN
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    10 years ago
    Lol my amex just got hit for $250 by my shrink before the bitch even texted me back about the roxi rx. Stripper keeps texting me asking if I'd mind making the down payment on her new car. Surrounded by parasites.
  • jester214
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    10 years ago
    I'll preface this by saying I think you're totally full of shit, but weren't you trying to suggest strippers are financially irresponsible?
  • LMN
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    10 years ago
    Why do you think I'm full of shit? Its not like I'm making my life seem particularly glamorous or enviable. Shit, I even offered to pay that one stripper to come down to Miami. Anyway, strippers are financially irresponsible given their spending when they are at risk of running out of money. Its different when you know that isn't really possible. I don't claim to be responsible per se, but financially I have a lot of lucrative investments that I've invested money from my trusts in. I spend a lot because I can. I'm never going to end up broke and homeless, or taking my clothes off for money.
  • ReadyPayerOne
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    10 years ago
    I assume your psychiatrist(s) have diagnosed personality disorders? If so, would you mind sharing what they are?
  • LMN
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    10 years ago
    @readypayerone: Sociopathy
  • LMN
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    10 years ago
    That diagnosis was from one of the most "prestigious" residential long term treatment facilities (located in utah). It was also echoed by my first psychiatrist who was harvard undergrad and harvard med school educated. My current psychiatrist is a woman who basically sells me drugs. She also told me that I was most likely a sociopath but our interactions in person are usually just mindless bullshit for 30-40 mins. She knows I need to see her weekly to keep my trust funds and I know she gets $250 per visit plus $250 for every scrip I want (which is a lot). it's a symbiotic relationship.
  • Dougster
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    10 years ago
    Never mind jester214. Probably the most notorious hater on this board. Has attacked many like ranukuam and carolynne just because they claimed atypical things about themselves.
  • LMN
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    10 years ago
    If anyone is down in Miami, id be happy to prove what I say is real. Just PM me if you are ever in the south beach area.
  • ReadyPayerOne
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    10 years ago
    @LMN - thanks for answering the question. Off topic, but have you been to that new strip club that opened downtown? I think it's called E11even. I haven't been, but am curious about it. Sounds like a shit show. Thoughts?
  • Papi_Chulo
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    10 years ago
    I live in Miami but hesitant to meet w/ someone I just met online that is under psychiatric treatment and diagnosed as a sociopath – nothing personal though.
  • LMN
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    10 years ago
    @readypayerone: Yes, my "favorite" stripper worked there until she quit stripping and lived off me. Its an attempt at being more high end, attracting 6 figure professionals, etc. As you may know, a lot of strip clubs down here get very "urban". Even the more expensive ones as they get filled with rappers and athletes. That's not my scene at all. So, I liked e11even. Prepare to spend, though. I was paying this chick $900 for sex and she was working there. But she was also, IMO, the hottest girl there by a mile. @papi_chulo: fair enough, lol. Miami is a big place, though. I rarely venture off South Beach as I live in one of those islands across from port of miami. Everything is kind of a hassle to get to.
  • looneylarry
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    10 years ago
    Whether it is all true or not, I don't really care. Can't relate to it. Is a whole different world. Don't care about your problems. Must be horrible to just have all the money you need, and more. Can't muster much sympathy.
  • LMN
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    10 years ago
    @looneylarry: Most people comfortably exist in the confines of the rat race. Perhaps when that is taken away, you may find that life is actually just a meaningless sequence of events. I always felt like if I "needed" a 9-5 job to make ends meet, I would be more functional out of necessity. That's why I initially got a suit and tie job after grad school.
  • goonster
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    10 years ago
    @LMN as somebody who is a recovering addict, I can say that you have a rough road ahead of you. At the rate you're going, you'll be dead from the drugs long before you can blow through your families money unless you change your lifestyle. Unfortunately, that's really dificult to do for a sociopath, so you're really in for a rough life. For me, I keep it simple. One day at a time, take pleasure in the simple things of life. Get a simple daily or weekly routine down and stick with it. You want to be challenged in life? That's your challenge. Being self destructive? That's easy. Not being self destructive? That's hard work.
  • motorhead
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    10 years ago
    I wanna fuck your shrink. She sounds hot
  • knight_errant
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    10 years ago
    ^^^This. Thank you motorhead for grounding this back in reality.
  • gawker
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    10 years ago
    LMN - I lived a fairly normal life for 62 years - 6 figure income, house in the burbs, wife & kids, etc. I retired at age 60, set up retirement accounts to pay me about $7000 a month. Couldn't stand retirement so got a job consulting that paid about $50,000 a year. Then I met my ATF. 24 year old stripper, heroin addict, who gives the best head I've ever experienced. She was born on my 40th birthday and I know just where I was when she was born: I had my face buried in the pussy of a drop dead gorgeous civvie. Since meeting my ATF I've been paying her about a grand a week. I've smoked crack, snorted line of blow, injected coke and white(the last time I OD'ed & ended up in the ER). I've had a fucking ball, I've fucked several other dancers from her club, and knocked several items off my sexual bucket list. Now, 5 years later I'm starting to ask the same questions as you. What's it all about Alphie?
  • Tyres
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    10 years ago
    This all reads like a bad Bret Easton Ellis novel.
  • gatorfan
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    10 years ago
    Try snorting a line of cocaine off her ass while sky diving.
  • Clubber
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    10 years ago
    Papi, We could go together. Unless this LMN is the second coming of Golith, we could handle him. Plus we have your boys and I have mine as backup if needed. :) Of course this could never happen since LMN is the figment of some 12 year old geek's imagination!
  • Papi_Chulo
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    10 years ago
    Yeah – we could have a “meet and greet” @ Tootsies – but then again that would not really accomplish much – I don’t think you and I have much in common w/ LMN – not that there is anything wrong w/ that - maybe
  • Corvus
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    10 years ago
    @LMN, your shrink is cheap and ineffective. I'll charge you $10,000 a week and have you straightened out in 90 days. You'll still want to chase strippers but you'll be off the drugs and know how to appreciate the important things in life.
  • LMN
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    10 years ago
    Gawker For me, I think it's about boredom and emptiness. I find my life to be an empty meaningless sequence of events. The strippers and drugs seem to liven it up, temporarily. But it constantly requires pushing the envelope, because what excites me once I find dull the second time. Its also about control. I prefer these relationships because she is my subordinate due to the finances. That gets me off, in some way. I often wake up and wonder "what the fuck is the point of going to work, getting out of bed, or doing anything?" it's all so mundane and meaningless. I often find myself disgusted and self loathing after sex with this strippers and I want them out immediately. My "favorite" once asked me "why I'm so unhappy when I have such a nice life." she explained that she had so little compared to me but it seems like I can't appreciate anything. At the time, I blew off the comment. It has since stuck in my mind as a shockingly accurate evaluation. I assume the strippers will get boring soon and I'll move on to something else. I have had many self destructive habits, since I was a child. I am just afforded the unfortunate ability to indulge in my vices due to my financial situation. Most people are limited to drown in their vices by monetary confines. Perhaps it would be best if I had those shackles. Ironically, I think my girlfriend is cheating on me. We have a long distance "relationship" and lately I think she's seeing someone else. I'm not sure how to feel about it. It does bug me though.
  • ilbbaicnl
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    10 years ago
    I thought American Psycho was fictional.
  • crazyjoe
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    10 years ago
    Full of shit
  • crazyjoe
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    10 years ago
    Shit!
  • crazyjoe
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    10 years ago
    Shit!
  • crazyjoe
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    10 years ago
    Shit!
  • crazyjoe
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    10 years ago
    Shit!
  • crazyjoe
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    10 years ago
    Shit!
  • crazyjoe
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    10 years ago
    Shit!
  • crazyjoe
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    10 years ago
    Shit!
  • crazyjoe
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    10 years ago
    Shit!
  • rockstar666
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    10 years ago
    Sports Cars! I'm a car guy...what have you got/did you have in the past? I prefer European exotics myself.
  • farmerart
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    10 years ago
    If you want to run through gobs of money in a big hurry (much bigger gobs than you claim to be spending or to have at your disposal) get into the frontier nat gas exploration game. I could always use a partner with more money than brains. The wells drilled this past winter came in at $15mil to $35mil per. Next winter I am aiming at much deeper targets and the wells will be much more expensive. Want to sign on?
  • LMN
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    10 years ago
    @farmerart Lol, I work in private equity. That's why it's so important none of my extracurricular behavior leads to drug offenses, dui's, etc. Would cause major issues with SEC. we mostly deal with software startups. Don't have enough knowledge on Nat gas to get involved though a friend of mine constantly talks about it.
  • rockstar666
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    10 years ago
    @ farmerart: "More money than brains"...I think everyone in the world wants to meet people like that!!
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