I'm a PL with pretty much no metaphoric balls...
a21985
Today, I ran into my ATF for the first time since I've been back. It was inevitable, but in my head, I told myself I would just say hi, simply chat for a sec, then confidently tell her I'm playing the field today as I head my separate way. But I'm a weak man. We caught up, one thing led to another and then yadda yadda yadda. I just couldn't help myself. For her part, she unsolicitedly did some things which she previously would not do, so it seems like she was reauditioning for the role.
Then she asked if she's allowed to start calling and texting me again and if I'm going to start going back to regular visits. For whatever reason, I didn't say no. I've certainly always been a PL, but I've never felt more pathetic and completely lacking of any testicular fortitude than I do today.
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You don't want her to be mad at you I would guess. Breakups whether its with a GF or ATF sometimes are not pretty. If she's as cool as you say, she'll understand and move on just like she did the first time. If not, you can't worry too much about it. She will eventually get over it.
Yeah, I don't think anyone else on here will be able relate to your situation.
Ahhhahahah lol
Whatever, I've got others I can play with. But I'd drop them for my ATF, lol.
But apparently I'm a sucker for a sure thing, no matter how predictable the encounter usually is. Like flag alluded to, seems like I've got myself stuck in a neverending loop.
I think you are misreading the OP - I think he's saying he can't stay away from her even if he wants to (as if he's hooked on her good pussy) .
I love a story with a happy ending!
Of course, from your wallet's perspective, this is the first 10 minutes of a horror story :)
You're right. I'm not an extras hound so that didn't register.
@Larry - But seriously, among other things, she's not a swallower, personally or with customers and knows I find that mildly annoying. That was a non-issue yesterday.
One of the toughest things for us PLs to do is say "No". Learned the value of just saying "No" when I was low on cash, but determined to see a high in demand dancer on her birthday. Blew off about eight chicks, who assumed I was a sure shot, while I was waiting on the birthday girl. It was the greatest feeling ever to spend my limited funds exactly the way I wanted to. Learn the power of "No".
I remember some hot favorites that seemed to stick around for like forever but after they leave, you miss them but they moved or left the business so things change.
Even worse is when a hot favorite leaves for a while but comes back super fat and no longer pretty but she wants to pick back up like nothing changed.
It seems likely to me that it's not the monogamy per se that bothers you, but what you perceive as the monotony that goes with it.
I might have said something similar to your comment 10 years ago, then I met *my* ATF. Spent four years fucking basically no one else, aside from an occasional blowjob. I was "in a rut," as someone on this very board once put it, and was enjoying it immensely. It was a very comfortable rut.
What matters is not that it's "monogamous" or gives you variety, what matters is whether you're enjoying yourself. If you are, don't disdain it because it's similar to what you have at home. If you're not having fun, don't continue with it just because it's different.
Of course, taking advice from a guy who actually and literally fell in love with a stripper might not be the smartest thing you could do, unless you use it as a counter example. :)