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Regrets

gawker

Older than dirt

Those who follow the exploits of the PL's in the discussion pages know that I've been seeing one stripper ( my ATF) for more than 6 years. She has helped me erase all listings of a sexual nature from my bucket list, however as a hard core heroin addict she's also drained my bank accounts and led me on an emotional roller coaster ride. I've taken her to detox and rehab literally dozens of times and every time she'd emerge with a whole new purpose in life - until she began using drugs again. Her lies and half-truths escalated until I finally drew a line in the sand which she quickly crossed. So our ride has ended.
During these many years, ours has not been a relationship of exclusivity. I've enjoyed the favors of many others and she has earned her keep with other men. One in particular, a well heeled medical professional, has been a frequent flyer in her bedroom, but not with the same frequency as I. He and I recently met and agreed that we both had feelings for her and that if and when she started using crack and/or heroin again we would not be the funding agent. Well, surprise, surprise she "fell off the wagon" again and I cut her off, but he's been roped in again and is back to supporting her lifestyle.
Meanwhile I've met a younger, newer model. She initially impressed me as a 9 or maybe even a 9.5, but as we've begun meeting at her apartment ( which I'm slowly furnishing ) I've gotten to see her with her "hair down" - no makeup, sweats, and better yet - boll icky bare ass, I'll rate her a strong 8. More importantly, I'm getting to experience sex and all that goes with it in a very different light. She is an extremely gifted woman in the pleasure arts and we are hitting it off quite well.
Now; my regrets? First, that I ignored the advice of many other readers here and hung in with the ATF long after the expiration date. Second; that I judged other dancers who provided me with BJ or even FS based upon one visit or encounter. My new CF took several times before she became more comfortable with me and shared her full repertoire. In fact, I suspect there's more to come. Third, and finally; that I spent so much time and money on the ATF after it became clear that change wasn't in her vocabulary. Yes, she provides the best oral sex this septuagenarian has ever had, but as I'm learning now, there are others who can match, or possibly exceed, my high water mark.
Bottom line: there's plenty of fish in the sea.