I know that I like to talk like I'm a(n internet) tough guy around here and how people should "be a real mean" and "be in control", but, lately, I've done something I've rarely ever done before. Compared my talk with my actions. From it, I've come to conclusion that I feel intimidated by strippers. Consider the following -
For ten years I didn't have the cojones to "just ask" strippers if I could pay them for sex. I had to write The System, which is all about me projecting a false image of who I am. Wearing the suit. Being sly. Try to act like I was the Gordon Gekko I tried but failed to be. Rereading it is even a bit funny that I was so insecure, even around hookers, that I thought I had to pretend to be all that just to pay them for sex. Then I thought it was such an accomplishment the rather few times (35%) it actually happened, that I thought it was a real triumph when it was, of course, nothing.
Then there was the time I stayed at home for months on end on those nights when both my favorites were working. You see I was sacred that if one saw me talking to the other she would get mad, and that was not a situation I could deal with it.
So, yeah, I'm a total pussy. Is there anything I can do to feel less intimidated around strippers or am I condemned to always be a total pussy?
Don't forget the night you spent driving the druggie stripper around and holding her purse when she was shooting up in the bathroom and then got absolutely nothing out of it.
Don't think there is much you can do about it, RickyBoy, just have to accept what you are.