What was better your civie first love or your ATF?

My civie without any hesitation!

If your answer is anything but civie you might have to reevaluate your life. Actual mutual attraction versus paying someone to tolerate you is a no brainer.

I would say I have better memories of my ATF because my first love ended with an acrimonious breakup. Both my first love and ATF were interested in me for fairly shallow reasons. My first love was attracted to me primarily by my youthful good looks and my ATF was attracted by my money. Neither one really picked me out because I was a good person with high moral standards. I would only really be pleased if a female picked me over other men for that reason.

Does the First Love count as dated or just a crush?

You can’t compare love and cheap sex.

First love was Tommie. We were 12. I wanted to kiss her - but I didn't. We moved away.

My 1st favorite was Sunshine. I fondled her boobs. Squeezed her buns. We gabbed about this and that. I told her she was beautiful, she motorboated me. She played with my nipples, I kissed hers deeply. She rubbed her moist kissed nipples into mine 😍. She ground my boner with her ass, we kissed each other's ears and neck.

Tommie died from smoking. Sunshine got fat during covid. I did kiss Tommie (on her cheek) when we were 60. I'd (probably) get 1 more dance with Sunshine just for the boob memories.

Nearly anyone could be better than my first love, Michelle. Michelle turned out to be psycho, and long after we broke up, I heard she committed suicide. Any of the strippers I ever scored with was better than her. I don't want to dismiss the fact Michelle killed herself, but that was not an unpredictable outcome

I was far more attracted to and [likely] lied to far less by my ATF than by my first real relationship. Isn't that back-asswards? Having said that, Connie did pop my cherry and I remember her name. I cannot, for the life of me, remember the name of that amazing blonde from Jaguar's in Fat City.

My wife, who is my first love, is not better than my ATF was, and my ATF was not better than my wife is. Great for different reasons.

Civie 5 ft. 105. Perfect puffy b cup. Amazing pussy.

My first love is the beautiful cashier at a gas station that I met when I was 29 shortly after I got married to my wife…I mean my ex-wife. I really knew that I had made a mistake and should’ve waited just a little bit longer.

In retrospect, I should’ve bailed out of my marriage and chased this other girl. I did wind up staying with my then wife thirty two years before leaving that rough relationship.

At least I got four good kids out of that relationship.

In my chasing the ladies after my splitting for my wife, I have met some awesome girls that I could pursue. But I do choose to stay single.

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not ‘for’ my wife.

It seems like most people, whether they'll admit it or not, don't even try to have a relationship that isn't a pathetic power struggle. So, if you actually seek a good relationship, the odds are already against you. On top of that, there has to be strong mutual sexual attraction. On top of that, for one reason or another, the mutual sexual attraction typically doesn't last, even if the love does. And, because of the pathetic power struggle, people won't accept that their SO gets their sexual needs met on the side, under any circumstances.
With sex workers, the pattern is, the ones who are more limited in what they are OK with are the uncomplicated ones. But the limits make it a worse simulation of mutual attraction. The ones who are less limited sexually are also less limited emotionally. Which is hard, since they usually have $ and other problems I am lucky enough not to have. They're generally unwilling to even seriously consider their expectations are long shots. They feel cheated by life, and want your unqualified sympathy. That often comes with thinking you should give them more $.
In the unwoke MAGA glory days of past centuries, for various reasons, some boys were castrated before they reached puberty. It was observed that eunuchs seemed to live longer than average. Not really surprising. Sexual satisfaction is like when you try to scratch an itch hard enough to make it stop itching. Persistent frustration takes a toll on physical health.
Point of all that being, strippers versus unpaid is meh versus meh.