A Victim of Sexual Child Abuse
reverendhornibastard
Depraved Deacon of Degeneracy
I lost my virginity at age 16 as a victim of sexual child abuse.
My “abuser” was a 26 year old woman who had hired me to mow her lawn.
At the time, I certainly didn’t feel abused. I felt like I had died and gone to heaven.
But I was young, naïve and I fell in love with the bitch. Later, after she got run out of town, I eventually realized that I was nothing special to her. I was just one of many under-aged boys she was taking advantage of.
I was crushed. As I matured and better understood what had happened to me, I began to hate this woman and to see her as a cruel, heartless abuser. She was always in total control. With her superior maturity and experience, she played me like a fiddle with no concern for my feelings or the consequences.
Looking back on it now I believe she was fucking under-aged boys because she was intimidated by grown men but felt she could control and dominate young boys.
This episode screwed me up for years. After that, the young girls appropriate for my age held no interest for me. I wanted another 26 year old woman who could do triple duty as mommy, girlfriend and sex teacher. But do you have any idea how difficult it is for a 16 year old boy to win the sexual affections of a woman in her mid- to late-twenties?
I struck out constantly and became very shy and withdrawn for almost 10 years.
I truly hate that woman now.
Fortunately for both of us, I never saw her again.
My “abuser” was a 26 year old woman who had hired me to mow her lawn.
At the time, I certainly didn’t feel abused. I felt like I had died and gone to heaven.
But I was young, naïve and I fell in love with the bitch. Later, after she got run out of town, I eventually realized that I was nothing special to her. I was just one of many under-aged boys she was taking advantage of.
I was crushed. As I matured and better understood what had happened to me, I began to hate this woman and to see her as a cruel, heartless abuser. She was always in total control. With her superior maturity and experience, she played me like a fiddle with no concern for my feelings or the consequences.
Looking back on it now I believe she was fucking under-aged boys because she was intimidated by grown men but felt she could control and dominate young boys.
This episode screwed me up for years. After that, the young girls appropriate for my age held no interest for me. I wanted another 26 year old woman who could do triple duty as mommy, girlfriend and sex teacher. But do you have any idea how difficult it is for a 16 year old boy to win the sexual affections of a woman in her mid- to late-twenties?
I struck out constantly and became very shy and withdrawn for almost 10 years.
I truly hate that woman now.
Fortunately for both of us, I never saw her again.
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Whether it was logical or not, I was very bitter about it.
Fifty years later, it STILL pisses me off when I think about it.
That I went along with it does not excuse her crime. Many men end up in legal jeopardy for having sex with underaged girls even though the underaged girl was willing and even if the underaged girl initiated the encounter.
It doesn’t matter one whit to me.
I am violently opposed to any one taking sexual advantage of someone who is underaged. I don’t care about the genders of the perpetrators or the victims. In any combination, it is vile and grossly unfair to the young ones. The only “exception” if you want to call it that are the Romeo & Juliet scenarios where the two are very close to the same age but one is technically underaged and the other one isn’t. Despite being on opposite sides of the legal age boundary, they are very close in age and maturity. There is nothing inherently unfair about that kind of match up. That is just a normal part of growing up.