A Victim of Sexual Child Abuse

reverendhornibastard
Depraved Deacon of Degeneracy
I lost my virginity at age 16 as a victim of sexual child abuse.

My “abuser” was a 26 year old woman who had hired me to mow her lawn.

At the time, I certainly didn’t feel abused. I felt like I had died and gone to heaven.

But I was young, naïve and I fell in love with the bitch. Later, after she got run out of town, I eventually realized that I was nothing special to her. I was just one of many under-aged boys she was taking advantage of.

I was crushed. As I matured and better understood what had happened to me, I began to hate this woman and to see her as a cruel, heartless abuser. She was always in total control. With her superior maturity and experience, she played me like a fiddle with no concern for my feelings or the consequences.

Looking back on it now I believe she was fucking under-aged boys because she was intimidated by grown men but felt she could control and dominate young boys.

This episode screwed me up for years. After that, the young girls appropriate for my age held no interest for me. I wanted another 26 year old woman who could do triple duty as mommy, girlfriend and sex teacher. But do you have any idea how difficult it is for a 16 year old boy to win the sexual affections of a woman in her mid- to late-twenties?

I struck out constantly and became very shy and withdrawn for almost 10 years.

I truly hate that woman now.

Fortunately for both of us, I never saw her again.

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Jascoi
6 years ago
good story telling sir.
Call.Me.Ishmael
6 years ago
I don't. I don't care about the gender arrangement, it's still wrong. 100% wrong.
Icey
6 years ago
At that age, it would be statutory rape at most.....enticement and coercion would have to be present for it to be abuse as such. The same scenario could have been present were you used by a younger woman.
Icey
6 years ago
Oddly enough, where are the people egging Shadowcat on when he brags about fucking hookers younger than his granddaughter....chiming in on this? Or the ones exalting the virtues of underage girls in VIP???? LMFAO
reverendhornibastard
6 years ago
@Icey - needless to say, it didn’t feel like rape to me at the time. When it happened, I was delighted. But as I grew up a little and realized how unfairly I had been taken advantage of, my attitude toward the whole mess changed. I am no psychotherapist but looking back on the 10 or so years after that event it seemed I was maladjusted, always wanting something that I could not realistically achieve with women much older than I was.

Whether it was logical or not, I was very bitter about it.

Fifty years later, it STILL pisses me off when I think about it.

That I went along with it does not excuse her crime. Many men end up in legal jeopardy for having sex with underaged girls even though the underaged girl was willing and even if the underaged girl initiated the encounter.

It doesn’t matter one whit to me.

I am violently opposed to any one taking sexual advantage of someone who is underaged. I don’t care about the genders of the perpetrators or the victims. In any combination, it is vile and grossly unfair to the young ones. The only “exception” if you want to call it that are the Romeo & Juliet scenarios where the two are very close to the same age but one is technically underaged and the other one isn’t. Despite being on opposite sides of the legal age boundary, they are very close in age and maturity. There is nothing inherently unfair about that kind of match up. That is just a normal part of growing up.
Icey
6 years ago
@reverendhornibastard, that's why relations with people who aren't psychologically developed enough and lack the experience to fully comprehend them, are unethical, and are statutory rape....meaning even if the body can say yes, the mind isn't ready to handle the repercussions.
Icey
6 years ago
Its sick, the perpetrator knows what they're doing and why.
Mainster
6 years ago
Tragic story. Pics of the abuser?
Jascoi
6 years ago
hot for teacher.
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