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OTC w ATF Pros n Cons

Although it's been a constant mental challenge to deal with all the baggage associated with a troubled young lady, there have been some amazing changes in my life, albeit at a high cost.
She has made me feel alive again where I had felt stagnated and stuck.
Though I've always been strong, I've been more interested in being healthy and fit.
I've lost weight and no longer have a beer belly. I eat better and dress and groom myself better.
My conscience is clear. I've always conceded to the the 'her stage, her rules' policy and it's been a challenge in itself since she constantly changes up.
Though there have been pressures on my schedule and funds, it has led to improving and expanding the way I do business.
The most difficult part is seeing a wonderful, bright, beautiful and talented human being go to waste. I can't be cynical and spiteful. Even the rough patches have been a blessing that have made me stronger.
All the long talks led me to think there was an opportunity to build a long term productive friendship. Hopes and dreams aplenty are nothing but empty words without commitment, planning, .and dedication to making some semblance of effort.
Pity the forces, whatever they may be, that are pulling her down, are so deeply engrained that any effort to lif her up is to no avail.
It is what it is, and whatever it is isn't what I was sold or what I signed up for. It has been an adventure so far. I will have fond memories, with little to no regret, and I will always care. I'm not sure if, when, or how it might end if it hasn't ended already. Dozens of times I thought it had, but then again, there is that definition of insanity...