My confession on world listening day.

Today is world listening day and here I am confessing. About a month ago I started rehab to battle my love for alcohol. I really do mean love. working in a club environment its so easy to say buy me a drink or to make it look like its a coping mechanism. ITS NOT!!! I drink because I really do love the taste and feeling. Sure it helped as a young dancer to lose inhibitions and it def helped when talking to people. But now its just a problem because I enjoy it, I can get smashed and get naked and have a great time without even thinking or better yet knowing what I did the next day. I can assure you (and some will argue) if your working in adult entertainment your either have or will have a problem with some substance. its a pitfall or adult entertainment. we are told from early on that nudity is bad and don't pull up your dress and then boom we are on stage and told we will be showing off either top half or all of our selves. its against nature to do that and a lot (all) turn to something to numb us. Im not saying some of us had problems prior to dancing but what I am saying is dancing doesn't help. So here I am with a check off list and I can proudly say I checked this one off the list. Making the declaration that you have a problem. I am an alcoholic and I am recovering and making it no secret that I am. I drink for many reasons but drinking will no longer define who I am or what I do. Geez that is cheesy but actually felt good to say. Thanks for listenting :)