I think I'm probably pathetic

Are these San Diego clubs? I assume that's why you can't find anything better ITC?

Why don't you just head down to Tijuana?

Damn James. Sounded like you were writing about me. My SC twin from the other coast.

Oh, and yes, we definitely are pathetic.

No worries. Those lies - that we tell ourselves - are part of why we keep going back!

We fit the PL definition - but your CF is doing a great job of creating the illusion too. It's good to have such a sexy and skilled CF!

^^^The dancers that spin the best illusions, will make me fall deeper into the ring of fire. Luckily, the dancers always find a way to muck it up and release me from their spell. PHEW!

I don't compare my dealings (mostly front room and dances) with the others, otherwise, I will come up short. I see no need to not enjoy my experience for what it was and at a price I was willing to pay. With that said, I do come here to share and learn from others.

I have long since given up the need to lie to myself. but from the compliments thread, I see that I have been buying into the ego pumping a little too much, lately and in the past, with the corny compliments, while ignoring the simpler, more genuine ones.

^^^ that's a good point. The illusion is great - and when it's going hot and heavy - it's amazing. But imo - it always ends - and that's not a bad thing - as it stops the drain on my wallet.

-->"Still, it's like I need a certain level of lie to enjoy our interactions, a level of dishonesty I find slightly pathetic in others."

In the land of PLs, something that is merely "slightly pathetic" is actually like a promotion :)

I think it is entirely natural -- and I mean on the level of "primal drive that's built into our species" -- to enjoy special treatment. YMMV is one of my favorite things -- I savor it. One of the small advantages of SCing with buddies is that I sometimes get a confirmation of YMMV... e.g., last SC trip, one of my buddies took my CF to the back, came back and told me, "she didn't let me touch her anywhere". She does have a reputation as being low mileage, but then again, that could have been wishful thinking on my part; but at least with my one buddy, it was solidly confirmed -- all those wonderful squishy parts that are fair game for me, and no fly zones for him.

did ya pay for sex? Then you probably are. Are you alone in the world? DEFINETELY not

Yeah whatever she does with you she more than likely does with everyone else. Do what? Just enjoy it for what it is. You're starting to sound like js69.

^*so what?

Agree with JS, this sounds like a description of San Diego in general. Two hours north or six east are different lands