I think I'm probably pathetic
JamesSD
California
She always waits for the next song before starting, a small touch I appreciate. Yet she was on my lap kissing me before the dances officially started.
I'm pathetic because I've convinced myself she likes me more than the other dozen guys she dances for a shift, that she does things for me she doesn't normally do. Maybe she does things that other guys have to pay 5x as much to get? But I can't be the only guy she's high mileage with.
I pay her to do things with me that in college I would have called a mildly disappointing date, getting mostly naked, groping and dry humping me.
She takes care of me in a way most strippers won't for a price I'm willing to pay, and that's why she's my fave. Still, it's like I need a certain level of lie to enjoy our interactions, a level of dishonesty I find slightly pathetic in others.
I'm gonna have another beer.
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Why don't you just head down to Tijuana?
We fit the PL definition - but your CF is doing a great job of creating the illusion too. It's good to have such a sexy and skilled CF!
I have long since given up the need to lie to myself. but from the compliments thread, I see that I have been buying into the ego pumping a little *too* much, lately and in the past, with the corny compliments, while ignoring the simpler, more genuine ones.
In the land of PLs, something that is merely "slightly pathetic" is actually like a promotion :)
I think it is entirely natural -- and I mean on the level of "primal drive that's built into our species" -- to enjoy special treatment. YMMV is one of my favorite things -- I savor it. One of the small advantages of SCing with buddies is that I sometimes get a confirmation of YMMV... e.g., last SC trip, one of my buddies took my CF to the back, came back and told me, "she didn't let me touch her anywhere". She does have a reputation as being low mileage, but then again, that could have been wishful thinking on my part; but at least with my one buddy, it was solidly confirmed -- all those wonderful squishy parts that are fair game for me, and no fly zones for him.