JimOsterberg

txtittyfag - perhaps more like Randy and his wife (I am married, she's not; we pretty rowdy, and she's down for anything) dancewdcpa - thanks for the response, that's great info! I forget to reference smoking. That's a real issue as we both hate the smell of cigarette smoke (I am an ex-smoker, she has never smoked and *hates* it). Is there smoking at Deliahs? That would definitely point us to Oasis. 50% (or $50?) would be good. The great thing about millennials -- they insist on pay for half of everything (50% right down the middle) and I am a bargain hunter a clubs (hence a preference for places like Outer Space) so the more we can save (without looking cheap) the better.

@PhatBoy -- I was fearful of that (hence my earlier comment about the "blast radius" when this implodes). As it turns out, the amicably split with an indefinite "hold" as she is on the other coast. This may have been a slightly different situation than most as on one hand she was European born/raised/educated. Yet on the other hand she was a fcking stripper living a stripper life that sounded as crazy as any of them. He was in that for a while (6 months?) and survived whole with no real scars. But it truly could have gone the other way. I have my own situation going with a similar highs and not yet lows, and not a stripper nor anyone in the biz, but fck yeah I read you loud and clear on every word you wrote in your last post. In the middle of it right now.

Stock tips. But specifically, because she blew every dollar she had saved (in the $10,000s) on the XM Radio IPO. Was pressuring me for a way to make it all back. Not a client I would like to advise (she would have had more luck if she hit me up before I came)

PHatBoy99 -- missed your comment. Appreciate that. I tend to agree, although as hypocritical as this sounds, I have an absolute undying love for my wife, and this experience is making me appreciate how important our marriage is. I realize how hypocritical and bullshit that my sound it. It is true, but I can't really explain it, which is why I was hoping to a find a forum with others with similar experiences. Either to call bullshit on my feelings or discuss through their own. I am self-aware enough to realize I am going through some rationalization which is clouding my better judgement.

Needless to say, not the conversation I was looking to have. I appreciate this may not be the forum for it. I will still keep looking. With the exception of Player11 But I will add a little more context. I have a girlfriend who is half my age, and for the first time not just a hook up or P4P. She is someone who has done this before (had flings with married men) but she is a professional (not a sex trade professional in any remote sense -- a young executive with a career in Marketing, has an MBA and makes about as much as I do). This either is my mid-life crisis or she's saving me from one. It is the most exciting thing to happen to me in what has been a less than boring life journey so far. To have someone so hot and young (seriously I never had anyone remotely as hot as her when I was her age) tell me how hot I am, how excited I make her feel, there is nothing like it. It is like being addicted to some insane drug that makes you feel 10 feet tall and pumped full of swagger. The sex is off the charts amazing and redfines "Girl Friend Experience" (I never had a girlfriend like this nor any comparable even with the most skilled P4P). There is only one prior experience (P4P) which was similar, but there was no intellectual or emotional connection, and it never happened again. Not night after night like this. Each night better than the prior. I notice other women treat me different as it has put me in complete Alpha mode. But obviously it will end. It will most likely end painfully. If I ended it now, I would be ahead of the game. No real risk, and just happy memories. But I like the self-discipline to end it now, and the longer it goes, it is naive to think I will be any better prepared to end it on my own terms. I am in uncharted waters here.