A few years back, I had a favorite who had a rocking body. She had just the right soft curves in all the right places and otherwise was slim. Her body somehow signaled "hot" and "comfort fuck" all at the same time, which is incredibly rare IMO. After weeks of casual pursuit, I finally got her OTC, but soon after she disappeared from the scene.
Fast forward 3 years and she has now returned to the club, except that there is a lot more of her now. So much so that I didn't recognize her at first when she came over to me a the bar. So much so that her small perfectly shaped boobs are now jugs. I just can't find the same attraction to her as I had a few years back.
I genuinely feel bad about that as she is a legit good egg, which is why I kept visiting her for weeks back then, even with no certainty of ever landing her OTC. During those visits I got to know a lot about her life. There was never anything polished about her hustle and there still isn't - she's still a sweet girl.
Apparently she blew up after finally kicking a coke habit. This makes me feel even worse as I'm genuinely happy that she got to a better place, but the hound in me very much misses her old body.
During my last visit she sent me veiled signals that she'd be open to another OTC adventure. I tapdanced around it, but she has to suspect that her weight gain is the cause of my lowered interest. With most strippers I wouldn't feel remotely bad about that - it's not my fault if they can't put down the Twinkies. But I genuinely like this girl, so I'm a bit more sympathetic than normal.
Ugh.

