A few posts ago u may have recalled that something happened to me in college that changed me.
My parents forced me to do something and it changed my brain chemistry..ive never felt like this after what happened but I continue to keep going. No its not excuse , but it completely skewed my mental vision .
This internal change helped me ruin my own chances of graduating with highest honors bc it completely changed me. As a person and therefore my own goals.
What's keeping me going is that even tho it'll take me forever to get a good lsat score , at least I have the grades to be able to represent clients and study law which I fucking love reading about .
Also what js keeping me going is that even tho I feel like my undergrad was rocky as fuck, at least I have a chance of graduating law school with top honors which would be fucking amazing and is the ultimate dream . ok wow ..at least that only took ten mins..not too much of a waste of time for a diary entry. Time to get ready now


Basically after the incident i felt I could ace the material and that there was no point of school cuz I understood everything.( I could make a minus studying the night before /day of test)
But its biting my career options so I wish I dosnt let the ego get the best of me among other things.the incident was. A huge part of that bc before it happened I was a completely different person.
Oh well.