The long, sad, downward spiral of a beautiful drug addict.

ClearHeelsHotAssCantLose
Everyone probably knows someone (a friend, a family member, or a stripper) whose life was ruined by drugs. You might hear that they overdosed, went to rehab, jail, etc. Taking a step back and looking at their downward spiral can be both sad and interesting at the same time. It's almost the plot of a movie in a way. Anyway, here's one such story, in case you are interested:

She was a stunningly beautiful blonde from rural America. Picture a young Heather Locklear, Christie Brinkley, or someone along those lines. She grew up in a big house, had a wealthy family, and a good childhood. She was a star athlete, got good grades, had lots of friends, and was the envy of many. She was a social butterfly and liked to party too. By the end of high school and the beginning of college, she started getting a little out of control with drugs and alcohol. It began to cause a lot of friction with her family. Eventually, her family couldn't take it any more and they kicked her out of the house.

She did some work as a model, but had to turn to stripping to keep from being homeless. She dropped out of college to strip full-time and pay the bills. As a stripper, she continued to party and her addiction only got worse. A white knight boyfriend came along (not me) and she left the pole, moved away, and lived with him for a few years. She worked as a model and he paid her living expenses, so things were looking up for her.

She was bored though, started partying again, and eventually started cheating on him. The relationship ended. She went back to stripping and eventually started escorting to pay the bills. The addiction became so bad that she eventually needed a big score, to keep a roof over her head and feed her habit. She used her looks and charm to con a married man out of $5,000, by promising to be his new girlfriend. He gave her the money up front (must not have read TUSCL), before ever sleeping with her, and she disappeared. He never saw her again.

The $5k kept her afloat for a while, but her out of control lifestyle eventually landed her in jail. After serving prison time, her family put her in an expensive private rehab program. She got clean, went back to college, graduated, and was on a good path. She was working and in graduate school, to get a Masters degree. She's in her late 20's now.

She eventually fell off the wagon and her addiction got out of control again. She dropped out of school and was fired from her job. She did some modeling work and started working as a sugar baby. Her drug use was out of control and she was extremely flaky, so she eventually lost all of her good sugar daddies. She was evicted and her boyfriend let her move in with him. She still needed to feed her addiction though, so she was escorting behind the boyfriend's back. It eventually drove him crazy and the relationship ended. She was homeless again. She moved in with a new boyfriend and the cycle continued.

She is as desperate as ever now, extremely depressed, and occasionally has suicidal thoughts. She's accepted the fact that she needs to prostitute to survive and it's destroying her. Even so, she refuses to move back in with her family or go to rehab. She sometimes has to steal to eat. She's lost a lot of weight and is starting to look strung out. She's still beautiful, but her lifestyle is slowly starting to take its toll on her.

Sadly, I think she may die of an overdose or at the hands of a dangerous john, because she is so desperate for money. It breaks her family's heart, but they have stopped sending her money, because they know it goes to drugs. At this point, jail or rehab may be the only thing that saves her life. It's amazing that someone could go from a model student, athlete, and prom queen to this. Sad.

She was my sugar baby at one point. She never conned me, but was very flaky. She is so desperate and erratic at this point that I don't trust her going forward though. She's capable of anything at this point, just to feed her addiction.

The end.

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poledancer83
8 years ago
very sad! everyone has to deal with their demons though. I like to think its the party lifestyle that brings all of it one. Party so much and think once wont hurt and then once turns in to weekly and then daily etc. nest thing you know your a junkie.
Papi_Chulo
8 years ago
Hard to understand why anyone would allow their life to be destroyed by drugs - I guess some people love to party and don't have a heathy fear/respect for repercussions, and some people forl w/e reason may have some deep-seeded unresolved issues/pain that perhaps they feel they can only deal with via drugs
Papi_Chulo
8 years ago
In the mid-2000s when I SCed in Dallas, I met an early-20s attractive white-dancer in a popular topless club - she was 4'11with nice full natural Cs and was pretty w/ long curly dirty-blond hair - she was kinda low-mileage and seemed to have her shit together and I think she had a young child (or maybe 2) - saw her 2 years later at a full-nude club and she looked like she had aged 15 years and it seemed obvious it was due to drugs - I was sad to see her how much she had gone downhill from what she used to look like just 2 years earlier
Mate27
8 years ago
Sounds like Rickyboy Dugan and you know the same girl the OP wrote about. You know what Rickyboy says about the dancer you described? Date them!
I think you are right Papi. In a lot of instances, it's a combination of a love for partying and also a desire to "escape" from whatever their problems or deep-seeded issues are. This particular woman loves to party, but also does drugs to escape when she is feeling depressed.

When I was younger, I loved to party, but as an adult I don't use drugs or alcohol to escape. I'll wallow in depression and feel sorry for myself at times, if things aren't going well, but just get through it and push forward without drugs.

That's crazy that someone can age 15 years in only 2. Sometimes I'll see an older, homeless drug addict on the street, who looks like they were once a beautiful young woman. They could have been a stripper when they were younger, but who knows. If the woman I'm describing above doesn't die or beat her addiction, I think she'll eventually wind up looking like one of those old, homeless, addicts on the street. No longer beautiful and hard to tell if they once were. Sad.
rickdugan
8 years ago
In the area I now live in, opioid addiction is a real epidemic among strippers and other sex workers. Escorts have been ODing left and right and some of the clubs are now full of stripper addicts. It really sucks as the drama and other stupid shit are really ratcheting up.
Tiredtraveler
8 years ago
Drugs of all types are becoming more pervasive everywhere! I picked up a local paper a while back from a town I spent the night in and there was a story the more than 30% of females delivering children in the local hospital test positive for narcotics meaning more then 30% of the babies were born addicted!
They are creating a pool of unemployable people.
The company I work for requires drug testing and I was shocked when discussing this with the HR person the number of applicants who can't pass the piss test. The workers compensation insurance carrier insists on the tests or they will cancel the insurance.
Bottom line if you smoke pot or do anything stronger than booze(which clears from your system in few hours) you will not be hired by any company I know. That leaves very little left. I makes it so addicts are in a self destructive world surrounded by other addicts and their enablers(dealers) who have no interest in getting clean. Legalizing pot will just increase that pool of the unemployable.
States legalizing pot are committing economic suicide in the long run: you create an unemployable population or at minimum a lower income group (most jobs that do not require a drug test are lower paying lower skill jobs) increasing welfare, Medicaid, and food stamp rolls while reducing the relative percentage of gainfully employed taxpayers. In the short term you get an increase in revenue form the sin and sales taxes on the product but in the long term your costs and income tax revenue decreases will soon out pace the the sin and sale tax income.
This will also create a larger gap between the haves and have nots that will be used to further vilify those of us that work, save. pay our taxes and pay our bills, then try to have a little left to spend on some entertainment!

jester214
8 years ago
One of the most beautiful women I ever slept with went down this path. We lived in the same apartment complex and partied together some. Her parents were supporting her while she was in school but she quit when she found out older guys would shower her with money. I quit hanging out with her when she started getting heavy into coke. She moved and I didn't see her for a couple of years, by then it was heroin and she was still attractive but very thin. I was told she was living in a motel and street walking. A year or so ago a mutual friend directed me to a recent online mug shot, she looked like a woman in her late 40's instead of late 20's. Her beauty was totally gone. She'd been arrested for a variety of things including child abuse and begging. Very sad.
Alarming stats TiredTraveler. Another sad tale jester. Thanks for sharing.
sinclair
8 years ago
ClearHeelsHotAssCantLose, thanks for sharing. I have known a few strippers that have gone down this same path. It is very sad. Unfortunately, rehab does not work the majority of the time. Once someone is hooked, they are on the path to death.
san_jose_guy
8 years ago
It is not drugs themselves which have this power to destroy. It is the other things which prevent the addict from having a legitimated life.

SJG
JohnSmith69
8 years ago
If she had not stopped stripping when she did, that could easily have been the story of the DS. I wanted to help her but I knew from gawker's stories that she had to do it herself. She now seems to be on the right path, but of course that could change any moment. Such a very sad story.
That's good she's on the right path. I know you want to see her and she wants to see you, but hopefully the extra money doesn't lead her back into trouble. It's a fine line between helping her and enabling her, as gawker's stories show.

My current SB is a college student struggling to make ends meet, so I feel better knowing I'm helping make her life easier. With the girl I mention above, I was starting to feel guilty about helping to support her habit, even though I knew she could easily replace me.
gawker
8 years ago
As the chief enabler of my ATF's 15 year heroin habit/addiction, I feel as if I have a fair handle on the nature of this problem. She too was a good student, a true beauty, family had assets, but she never felt like she fit in. She has a million acquaintances but no friends.
She has a dual diagnosis: an addiction and a mental health problem. I delivered her to detox again tonight, there's no doubt in my mind that she wants a sober life, but unless both of her issues are treated, she'll relapse at the first roadblock she encounters. Very sad, very common, and very hard to treat.
I'm convinced that my ATF has a personality disorder which is difficult to treat by itself and almost impossible with an overriding addiction.
Ugluck75
8 years ago
Gawker, I am right there with you. My ATF/girlfriend is an ex-stripper heroin addict. She is about to move in with me but I consider it a mixed blessing as she is a younger version of your ATF. Hopefully she can find the strength to overcome her addiction but it is easier said than done especially because part of her problem is mental and not just the drug addiction.
Dougster
8 years ago
RickyBoy: " In the area I now live in, opioid addiction is a real epidemic among strippers and other sex workers"

Won't be surprised if that's why you choose to move there. Perfect conditions for running The System, right?
Papi_Chulo
8 years ago
^ that was cold
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