The "L" word...
shadowcat
Atlanta suburb
I have only had one stripper use the word "love". She was my first and only real ATF. After a year of our relationship, she started ending her mails to me with love ya. Then it became more personal. In person. When ever we met. I felt kind of clumsy the first time I responded to her and kissed her. It was real on my part. Do I think that it was real on her part? Yes! But not in the romantic sense. More like father/daughter except that I had special privliges. There was a 40 year difference in our ages and I think that we both knew that nothing could come of it but the sharing of caring for each other was enough for us. She is gone but will never be forgotten.
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Sounds like my first ATF, although she isn't really gone. We had and have mutual friends, but I had done something stupid and messed it up some time ago.
Your ATF was about 9 years old?
"It seemed like we had a slight age difference since I was about 9 or 10 years older than her. That seems like a lot when you're only 18 or 19."
Like shadowcat, I often think of it as father/daughter relationship (I don't have any kids of my own) but that sort of freaks her out.
Myself.... I'd rather hear my dancer telling me, "I love the way you suck on my clit" or "I love the way you keep me wet & horny". I don't particularly want to hear the "I love you" line for quite awhile, although my current S.O. says it daily. If you can read "between the lines", you note I used the word 'current'. Things are beginning to change (as well as her) and the 'current' may be the 'past'.
Hee hee hee...when I first saw this thread, I thought the "L" word was for "Lesbian" (from the Showtime series). Damn.
I have been VERY careful not to use the "L" word with any of my girls, especially Miss ATF. I HAVE admitted to her that I have "feelings for her", but even though she probably suspects it's more than that, I don't think it's time to throw that word out there. It's one of those words that once you "play" it, you can't take it back... it's "out there". It's also not a word that I tend to use freely, or take lightly.
As for her, she HAS uttered it once, I think. It was probably in January. They'd had some heavy snow down in her neck of the woods, and one day she had to leave work early in order to get home. If she worked later, she'd probably have been stranded in Indy, not able to get home. Anyhow, upon her return to the club for her next shift, she was told that because she left early, she was being suspended for a week. She called me, beside herself. It was bad enough that she'd just driven over an hour to work, but now she was going to have to be off work without any money coming in. (I'm a sucker for a pretty girl that is crying... they could get me to do just about anything) I told her to hang on for a few minutes and I'd call her right back. When I called her back 15 min later, I informed her that I'd just wired her money to help out. She didn't ask for it... it's just the nice guy that I am. Anyhow, she said that was the nicest thing anynone had ever done for her and she was noticeably very happy and excited. I think her exact words when I first told her, were... "Oh thank you... I love you!" Of course I knew it wasn't said in the context of what I'd like to have heard, but it sounded and felt good, nonetheless. I think she realized what she said, and since I think she's been careful not to let that word slip out there like that.