I don't think you or other girls who do what you are describing are weird.
The last decades have had lesbian customers becoming far more common.
But you seem to be talking about just the taboo nature of it. But isn't that still something like sexual excitement?
If you are not, you should become a dancer, even if say it is just for the weekend nights. Lots of girls do this, better than sitting home alone. The motives of dancers is not really restricted to money. Maybe that is what you really mean here. Girls have made it clear to me that they like the social nature of it, even the dolling up and wearing little more than high heels and make up. They love it. They love the club, and usually they love all the OTC they get invited to.
Maybe they have swinger's clubs where you are, ones which draw a younger crowd. I bet Austin does, maybe San Antonio too.
If what you are saying is that like these ones I have known, you are a girl who likes to be fucked, you'll never get any complaints from me.
SJG