She wasnt taking it and my low self esteem killed the mood

This girls rubbed herself all over me and rammed her pelvis into me hard over and over again and was breathing really hard, panting, not vocalized but like a stifled moan, and I joked "you're good at faking that" she stopped and said "what?" Then I told her and she got genuinely upset and said "that's not fake" and she seemed mad and it killed the mood. Then I paid attention and realized she was literally dripping wet into me and I had killed the mood with my shitty low self esteem.

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What's wrong with me