What I want...What she wants

Good analysis, Meursault.

Haha.

She wants $$$ - you want her body - anything else is the old trying to fit the round peg in square hole; IMO.

I think you need to reach a middle ground.

Here's what I recommend:

Fancy dining for her - take her to red lobster or Olive Garden.

Sexual nirvana for her - fuck with the lights out. You may be fucking the night stand instead of her but it's okay you won't be able to tell the difference in the dark.

Sounds like everybody sorta gets what they want...if they squint reeeeeeeal hard and not think about it too much.

^ ha @lowpa. Once again, fortune favors the squinter.

When I was 28, I had exactly what you wanted, more or less. I was no underwear model, but she was a nymphomaniac.

It's bittersweet I can never go back to that time.

I feel better having read Meursault's and lopaw's posts in this thread. Thank you. Sometimes I wonder why my CF has to close her eyes too. I wonder is it really that bad? Then I, too, squint really hard. It helps.

Eyes wide open, eyes shut. Think about her from time to time. Memories are to be treasured.

I used to be as skeptical/cynical as you. Then shit happened, and two strippers apparently don't need my money.

One of them seems to really like me and when I visit her drops most everything to enjoy some naked time.

The other just wants some "face time with somebody who isn't a demanding creeper" (her words), and puts up with my pot belly and ugly faces to get it.