Like I wrote in my past entries, I have lessened my trips to strip clubs, just choosing not to be in the frontline getting it on with strippers. No, I've thought where I was and I am now is pretty much where I want it to be.
In the last three or four weeks, things have changed because (1) CF2 showed up and we have been texting for like everyday, (2) CF3 showed up and she is what I'm going the call the girl I've been waiting for in my whole life (No term for that category, yet).
You see, I didn't push too damn hard to get these girls, even text with. They somehow as the Pendulum of Time unveiled two more girls for me to know about. I can't believe these two girls are off-the-charts in the looks and charm department and to me I just look up to the heavens and say "What do I do this time?"
All this text messaging and face-to-face meets are actually wearing me down.
I know.
It's hard to believe, yeah I'm saying it but that's what it is. I feel I need to step back and just chill. Be out of the game and just be away from these awesome girls.
I look at their faces and sure enough they light up my day. But deep inside there is something lurking, hiding under the shadows whispering "dude, you are going to burn out, these three girls contain enough drama you won't be able handle."
So yeah, last night I was with my CF1. And CF2 sent me a text about walking her pet out and I would there to get things going. CF3 wants to have dinner next week.
It feels like I'm back to the time when I was a college student. It was awesome back then, but now, it seems like I've been there done that kind of feeling.
I'm not feeling sorry, I'm just saying all these nice things going for me--sure I really like and appreciate them. However, there is still something I have not seen yet.
The universe is witholding the real one from me.
And so I feel burned out. I just need to step back a little and think where this girl is hiding.
#catharsis #reflection
we all go through stages and cycles. I'm having the time of my life with two dream strippers, a porn video girl, and a few others occasionally. Eventually I might tire of it and just chill for a while like you. Or I might decide to start saving more of that money to retire early.
I have considered slowing down. But then I see them. Then they get naked. Then I get naked. Then she gives me lap dances. We kiss passionately. We make out. I worship their bodies. We fuck. We suck. We cum. And I decide I don't want to stop.