I always turn my back on my ATF

I don't know if it has anything to do with me being bi-polar or what, but once in a while I will get really cold with my ATF, but usually has something to do with the fact that she either told me her fuck buddy is the DJ, or keep hitting me up for rent as soon as she gives me her phone number, or when I wanted a LD from her, but she instead went to ask other PL who she never seen before for LD first, and I ended up being mistreated by her. I use to enjoy being special and getting all the attention but I get sick and tired of a same dancer very quick. Man I am such a asshole.