Need some advice
Wednesday, September 6, 2006 8:03 PM
The stripper whom I spent good money on and had many pleasurable times with is back at the club I frequent. She is/was 'the one'. Operative term being was. No person has ever had the influence that she somehow managed and most of it I was able to keep inside and slowly deal with. This is a girl whom I know it would be far better for me to never see again as the two most recent close calls involved a) me passing by the club she was working, NOT going inside and having an accelerated heartbeat for the next 2 plus hours (I haven't had that since that night) b) sitting at Cheetahs and seeing a girl on stage that looked exactly like her down to the legwarmers, bigger butt, darker complexion, hairstyle etc. As I approached the stage to tip her I became breathless and gasped when I saw it wasn't actually her. I tipped her and the dancer asked me to stick around for a moment but I was too much in shock at the resemblance.
A few minutes later a gal I am very friendly with there and knows some of the backstory told me my girl was back (the sense of bemused dread had to be oozing from my pores). As I approach the music booth to ask about another dancer the DJ whom I am on good terms (but doesn't know any backstory) with mentions the same exact thing that he saw my girl and wanted to know if he could pass anything along to her. I juss say you can tell her I have asked about her and when he asked me if he should tell her that I would return the following Monday I said no you don't hafta say anything regarding a future appearance.
I have no idea what I would even say to Bree. My last meaningful communication with her was an e-mail expressing that she was trifling with my feelings (about 4.5 months ago). Against my better judgment I attempted to see her in late June and she was on vacation (I had no money in wallet ---- $80, and knew I wasn't going to spend any fundages beyond that). We've had one phone conversation about six weeks ago and after telling me she wanted to see me before I went on a few vacations she no-showed when she had said otherwise (I learned from the past and called beforehand).
To a large extent this girl is out of my system but I have no idea juss what the hell is in store for me if I were to cross her path again. I have other girls I enjoy spending time with and I don't really care to burden anyone with stories of how big an idiot I've been (I never really felt used and every dollar spent I enjoyed spending, as there was never anything I couldn't afford). Externally I could handle seeing her. It's my internals which give me pause and I have no clue juss what may be in store down the line. Avoiding Cheetahs isn't an option.
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