Livvybarbie

Call never prove myself to somebody I don't know especially somebody that is a troll, I got out of the hospital Tuesday and I was raped yesterday. How am I going to go to a club in my area when I don't have clothes or shoes I said if somebody could bring me to a cop work they will give me some clothes or some shoes that would be great nobody's going to hire somebody that has no clothing hasn't showered has nothing I don't care if I have to walk there that's fine. If there's dancers on here that are local that have some clothes they could give me that would be really awesome I'm using an old tablet on Wi-Fi I do not have phone service I don't have a phone anymore. I appreciate the care but I am going to go kill myself I can't do it anymore emotionally and mentally I'm out of options I'm tired of trying to get these shelters and social workers to care. I don't know why everything is all about credit everything is all about that like it's just impossible Thank you guys for Caring but this is the last anybody won't hear from me

How can I WebCam when I don't have a working phone I don't have a computer I don't have a way to do it I don't have clothes I have one outfit I don't shower I have nothing and on top of it one of my biggest issue stripping was people want personal information they want to hear your life story they wanna hear about you they wanna know all about your life you have kids you have a boyfriend are you married where are you from and I don't give that information I'm just at my wits end and I'm tired of holding it in I'm very standoffish I'm a very private person but I'm at a point where I cannot take it anymore But thank you guys for your advice I'm gonna go kill myself right now

I just got out of the hospital for trying to kill myself several days ago and they were like oh you know you need to figure out to get some health insurance or get some money you can start taking your medication again they are not that helpful at the end of the day I'm probably just gonna kill myself again tonight

I know I could easily go get shelter and stay with some guy but he could write me and make me have sex with him and I don't just go to random peoples houses I don't like being on the streets I don't wanna be here but this is been going on since I was in high school it's the same bullshit over and over and over I just don't get it. If anybody knows some clubs that would like fly me out and give me clothing and put me in a place to live maybe for a night until I get on my feet let me know if anybody wants to cash app me and send me a few dollars that would be appreciated also I just can't do the whole prostitution thing and even dancing was a last resort it started one night because I was in a shelter and the whole thing happened of the whole look we found your housing we've been dealing with you for over 10 years nothing is working out nowhere will approve you so I went right back out on the street I still had some money went right back to the hotels and I was like OK my moneys gonna be drained pretty quick So then I went to dancing and then I was at a club it was right when everything reopens and I made some money I got a shitty car and I was dating somebody who was beating me but his car insurance was cheap so I had him in sure and put me on his plan because my car insurance is not manageable then I was staying at the hotel and I wasn't making money and my car was all messed up it was an old car but it worked and I was happy with it and they told me I had to leave because I old them money for three days and that I had to get my car towed out of there if I was going to be leaving I couldn't afford it so they told it out and I went to the tow yard it was $500 to get it out and that was the end of my car I know when I was younger I should've reported the guy that open a bunch of stuff in my name I get that I know I shouldn't have let somebody take my car without a license and go drive it but this is stuff that happened one of it was eight years ago the other one was six years ago and I still can't get out of it And I'm so sick of people being like you must have some family know I come from a small family there's five people alive in my family and my family used to bring me to be raped by family members they are not good people and even if they wanted to help me which they never would they're not allowed to speak to me and I would not want those types of people in my life

So I was in a town where the elementary school high school middle school is all in one building there's maybe 200 kids in the whole thing it's really small small towns all over no public transportation is no truckstops the highway is about four towns away. I'm just so out of options and I'm tired of trying to kill myself and having it fail. I don't understand how these girls that have nice wives seem to get more money all the time and people just send the money I don't understand how these girls that do drugs manage to always have money and always get people to do things for them like how come it's the people that already have money or the people that are choosing to do degrading things and spend all their money on drugs and throw your life away get people to help them. I know a lot of privilege girls and druggies to get everything done for them