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19 years ago
I thought I was alone in this. Two year ago I fell hard for a 19 yo sweety. I couldn't think of anything else but her. I am in a bad marriage, she is in a bad relationship. She said that although they live together, they don't sleep together. They only stay together for their daughter. We were an outlet for each other. We met OTC, I paid her, though she never asked me too. Never had intercourse, but lots of other good stuff. She was very loving, but would hardly ever kiss me. Like the song says, it is in her kiss. If she wouldn't kiss me, then it was not real.
Then one day, she calls me very upset. The guy has slept with her girlfriend who was staying with them. I was supportive of her and cared for her, but if she wasn't that involved with him, why the big tears? I believed she called me because she believes that I love her, And I did. That was one year ago, I have seen her only once OTC since and only stopped in a few times to say hi. But when I see her, all the emotions flood back and I want her.
SC for me were just a way to make up for lack of interest in the wife. For months, I went to other clubs, but couldn't get interested because I missed her so.
Now she calls to say hi on occassion, but it is not the same.