Why I voted for Kamala Harris but wanted her to lose

I couldn't think of a decent title, so I just stuck with the facts. I decided to vote Blue this election. I am 90% Democrat on most issues. It doesn't matter because both my home state and current state are both blood red. I have always found that ironic, that someone with liberal values typically gets employed in predominantly Red counties. They should do research papers on this phenomenon. I believed Kamala was best for the country despite any personal misgivings I had.

Here's the deal: I am really tired on the educated black woman trope. Notice I said "trope" and not persons. All my life I have dealt with women (white and black) who have been preachy towards me. I acknowledge some of the criticism was warranted, but a lot of it was contradicted when I finally started working. There are a few complaints I could make, but the last thing I need is to be labeled incel, when that's not true at all. Incel is a derogatory term that has lost all original meaning. A man's ability to attain sex does not mean they are socially intelligent or even a well adjusted individual outside sexual encounters.

I am pointing out that many women talk down to men or belittle men who don't share their world view. Even when you propose viable counter arguments to their beliefs, you are treated poorly because you don't confirm the "modern idealization" of what a man should be. This happens more often with liberal white women than conservative women in my experience.

Its okay to be challenged, but be respectful. Don't speak to me as a child when I have worked to get to where I am and faced challenges on my own. Many of these women have family or relationships to fall back on and not take accountability. I don't have that option.

I will admit I have concerns about Trump, namely the new Government Efficiency counsel under Elon Musk. It's understandable to want to hold government accountable for spending, but that requires you actually know where the money goes. Cutting spending doesn't magically make systems work efficiently and cheaply.
You are going to make some sectors operate worse because they barely received much funding to begin with.

Government is NOT A BUSINESS, sometimes positions are created to deal with problems that don't bear fruit until later. A private company may choose to just ignore the problem to save money. And often decisions are made months in advance before final orders can be given.

I have a job in the defense industry, and my main concern is that Elon Musk will just cut programs that have nothing to do with corruption in DC.

Tax cuts are great if you are making over $150, 000 a year for your family. I don't make that much per year. What I get back, even during Trump's first term, is basically just one mortgage payment. That's the main reason I see no reason to vote Trump.