discussion comment
11 years ago
Sorry to get back to y'all to such an amazing amount of feedback this late. Harsh criticism or not, I'm practically after the reality-check. There's so much to take in, yet it's simultaneously enlightening to read what most of you regulars have experienced.
As originally stated, I'm only after some fun & even if it's temporary I'm after the joyride 'til it's game over. I work as a Front Desk Agent & I've studied people consciously & subconciously since I started back last Summer (Hell, it beats taking a Sociology course in college; not to mention you get paid instead of paying for the learning experience). Though I have yet to frequent different titty-bars other than my local & another one in the city, I've been observing the atmosphere ITC diligently while simply having a good time as a patron. Perhaps the most important thing to always remember is them dancers are human 1st & foremost. I've known it's always been about the money whether we'd like to bring it up or not. Ain't that why we all work? Money, it's all there ever is.
It's funny, I wanna bring up an experience I've been haunted with for the past 3 years. Met this particular dancer back in late January 2011 & gradually fell head over heels for her yet everytime I return just to see her, we mostly catch up & have fun ITC. Eventually I began developing a mentality that deep within I really wanna jump the gun & ask her out in hopes of turning this fantasy into a reality though my other-half keeps reminding me I'm only chasing after an obsession/illusion that's gonna kill me sooner or later. & lately for the past couple times I went back, I was aching for closure yet she's not there during those times. I'm just about done, but I'm planning 1, 2 more visits tops to see if she's still there. If she's scheduled on whatever days, I'm going back to play it cautiously with questions that doesn't lead to a blow-out & see where it'll leads me. If she no longer works there, then that's the end of that chapter.
But I digress. Again, I appreciate all the feedbacks from everyone. SlickSpic, that Witherspoon's saying is hilarious, but right on! This is only the start of such researching & it's always a nice time spent on reading up as much there is about OTCs. I'm still weighing in between going all out with an escort or finding out the deal with those 2 dancers I brought up. I won't let it destroy me regardless...