To bone, or not to bone, that is the question...

I'm facing a bit of a moral dilemma and/or mid-life crisis. Basically, I'm going through...a "thing." It's probably due to getting older, being in the doldrums, in terms of my marriage, and realizing that I'm not sure I could live through the next 20+ prime years without exploring other new greener pastures or vaginas. Not that I want a green vagina, but...you know what I mean. So, in a sense, I'm writing this to seek the advice of the more senior group here or anyone that cares to respond, for that matter, so that I may gain some insight through your experiences.

I've been going to strip clubs off-and-on since my high school days almost 30 years ago. It was always on the agenda for a boys night out and still is, although I do go by myself from time to time. My wife knows that I go to the clubs here and there with the boys and get lap dances, but we are more on a don't ask don't tell policy, when it comes to my going to strip clubs. She also is unaware of the menu offered at some of the clubs around town, especially in places like the City of Industry. In addition, she trusts me to a certain extent, but also knows that she has the leverage, in terms of our kids, if I were to stray. She also know how much I love them and that I wouldn't want them to be kinds of divorced parents. I've only had one atf at a club ever and that relationship developed about a year and a half a go and since faded since she left dancing. It was more of a friendship tease type connection to keep me interested and spending. I really liked seeing her at the club and it was perfect, since I've never unzipped or kissed another girl since meeting my wife 15 years ago and am not sure that I want to cross that line. However, I've been thinking about it a lot lately and the guys, well, some of the married ones at least, say i should just get it out of my system, but to also keep it quite and do it as a P4P basis. In other words, not with girls that there is "relationship" potential.