Love Madness

I have visited the Carnival strip club in Brooklawn, NJ a few times since May 5th, but I just checked the place out for 10 minutes or so and left.  I say this because I have had over 300 private shows here since February 2007, and I am trying to ween myself off the addiction.  I saw the same girl for all 98% of the 300 visits and her name was Crystal.  I had "Love Madness" for Crystal ever since the first time I saw her.  She left in November and supposedly moved back home to Virginia, but I dont know exactly where in VA.  I am going crazy without her and I am suffering great pain.  God must really have it in for me, because he has me living in hell right now.  I really need to see her again. 

If anyone is reading this and knows how I can contact her, please let me know.  The workers at the SC wont give me any information, either because they dont know or because they are protecting her privacy.  If anyone knows her last name, please send be a private message and let me know it.  Or if you know where she is living in VA, please let me know.

I actually drove to Virginia twice to look for her.  I started in Woodbridge, VA and drove down route 1 to Fredericksburg, VA looking for her red SUV Durango.  I also drove through all the trailer parks along the way looking for the SUV.  If anyone can tell me her last name or what town she is living in, I would greatly appreciate it.  In the meantime, I still suffering without her.

I am married with two teenagers, and this "relationship" has ruined the intimacy with my wife.  We might ever be getting separated soon.  That's what this has done to my life. 

My heart wants Crystal (that's her stage name) 100%, but it is complicated for my mind.  I dont want to hurt my wife and kids, who are 16 and 18. 

I always sweet talked Crystal, but last year she started liking me back (she actually used the L word).  I did not know what to do, but my gut told me not to persue it at the time.  But with my wife and I about to be separated, I wish I tried to pursue a real relationship with Crystal.

I fell like killing myself instead of living without her.

OK, want some spice in this article?  I will tell you a little about the private sessions.  I like to be dominated and she was Mistress Crystal.  I wanted to start out slow and our first session was a little foot worship.  I asked her to cross her legs and order me to get on my knees.   She gave me a leg and shoe show.  She wore eight inch heels.  I asked her to take off her shoe.  I was worried that she would have ugly feet and ruin my fantasy, so I did not take a real close look.  I asked her to place her bare foot on my face.  Once again, I was worried that her foot would stink and that would ruin the fantasy, but her foot did not smell.  At this point I climaxed prematurely, she giggled a little at how easy I was.  Afterwards, she treated me like a friend, instead of a slave, which was pretty cool.

After about 10 shows she started to remember me and what I like.  It was about this time when we started something new.  At the beginning of the session, she would put the platform of her eight inch heels under my balls.  I would get excited and look at her in the eyes.  She gave me a flirtation and playful smile.  I said, "you know, when I watch female domination videos, I sometimes see the mistress kick the slave in the balls."   She said, "Oh, I kick guys in the balls all the time.  Do you want me to kick you in the balls?"  Well, I wanted to take it slow.  She was very professional.  "Get on your knees", she said, "I will start out light and we will go from there".   It was great, I loved her more and more everytime.   

Our 30 session started something like this.  "OK, stand up and spread 'em"...