stripper girlfriend

its very hard to date and have a serious relationship with a stripper. i have been with my girlfriend for over a decade now and we have 3 children together. she has been dancing on and off almost since the beggining. i am currentley out of work, which reallly sucks and is long story. if i could be at work i would in a heartbeat. i'd prefer working in hell before letting my girl dance. anyways when she has not been dancing she has my full trust,when dancing i barely have no trust in her. i know how us guys are ,some of us anyways. those of us with,looks,money, charming personality, we can get what we want, and i am always worried that some guy is worming his way in. even if she has no interest in the men she dances for, is she doing extras like hj,bj? i'll never know its her word against what seems very likely.  when its about time for her to come home i cant wait i miss her and want her....but at same time i dread it not knowing what happened . i am very confident when shes not dancing, while she is dancing i get very insecure, i do not want to be compared to and with these other men. its hard to walk away because i love the family life and love her and my kids. i do beleive she loves me,and as i said i try hard to beleive her and what she says. easier said than done. it is a very confusing situation. i know i could have other woman easily,but shes the only one i want and ever will. but it seems like shes getting a free pass to cheat and experience other men to where it is i am not, and i do not believe in being faithful. so anyways i am living an everlasting hell. so for some of you guys that think being with a stripper or falling in love with one is cool or would be great. no its the absolute worst.